What my little heart says..

Assalamualaikum :)

Its 2013 already haaa! And oh, January is ending, one more day we're approaching the second month already! Time really flies ain't it? Ermmm, lets see what do i wanna pokpekpokpek here?

Just feeling sappy again. That makes me write, coz i just don't know who i should let my hearts out to on this kinda situation. By writing, even to this plain blog i know somehow it will help to weep this anger and sadness. Literally.

I'm aware that I'm a big complaint sometimes ( errr, maybe most of the time ) but really i guess I'm just hoping for the best especially in something i've spent most of my years in. I wonder sometimes, am i asking too much? Is it so hard to fulfill my wish? Ain't asking for platinums nor gold nor big cars nor anything expensive but JUST simple things like understanding and communication. I guess the ladies just go way too far with their man expecting things which i guess it not that unexpected? Yes, no? I'm too tired of pin pointing, I'm not getting any younger with that game. I just want something i can rely on to, someone who will be my backbone and take all the responsibilities of what he/she should have. Im thinking too further ahead, but thats not wrong isn't it? Didn't our parents always tell us to think of our future? Or is it just me who's over dwelling on this? I envy those partners who are happy not just one day, one week or one month but even them having those fights then reconcile and MOST importantly making things up and never having to come to that situation again. I've not had this feeling for some time but this time it hurts so bad.

I'm sorry for all my khilaf, i know i ain't perfect either but what I'm asking for is that we help ourselves to bring the best out of each other. I dunno how many times i should be saying this, but someday i hope you are gonna hear me out, deep inside my heart. This swollen eyes are not worth the tears running down if all i can do is going through this again and again.

I kept giving chances by chances but still not seeing the results. I really dunno what else i should do, i think i've given my best. Maybe my best is just not good enough :'(


Yours truly,
The sad soul

#26112012

It's been 4 months since this blog was updated. The last entry was written when i was really frustrated and upset. After 4 months down the road, I think I am a much positive person. Taking things steadily, one step at a time.

So much happened in this period of time. I even decided to quit some part of life. But Allah definitely has better plans for me. I'm still here, hanging on. Honestly, I'm anxiously waiting for 2013 to come. Looking forward to what's in store for me. For whatever decisions made, I hope I wont have any regrets. I do miss life back then. Sometimes i reminisce too much. But living on memories of yesterdays wouldnt make me a better person today. So i decided to move on eventhough it's one tough decision. After all, life never waits on you, right?

I gotta stop that running-away-from-every-shit-attitude and face my fear. I'm gonna try harder this time. InsyaAllah.



Yours truly,
Liyana Kamal

once a liar always a liar?

okay. not gonna say much, but i can surely say nobody likes to be cheated.
so once karma gets back on you, keep lying and be happy :)


selamat berpuasa to all muslims. I pray for my happiness, and of course everyone around me. 


love always.
liyana

COACH COACH COACH!

OMG OMG OMG! COACH is out with their new SUMMER collection ! Sumpah they are so prettttttayyyy! I love every one of them! I wish I could own them. Boohoo ! So much of a shopaholic eh. Never mind lah, tak dapat beli tengok pon jadi lah kannnn. *BIG DROOOL*

life is tough

Just recently, I read this quote from a twitter friend.

"Mana ada bahagia jika tiada duka. Ujian Allah itu bermacam-macam. Sabar menghadapinya."

Like seriously, I do agree with this and I'm hanging on. So much to life now even I don't seem to love every single bit of it. But nonetheless, I'm still grateful :)

Grateful because, I have a supportive family, beautiful nieces and handsome nephews, cool cousins who made my day even more exciting and friends near or far who have inspired me in every single way.

I still consider myself lucky. True though they say, life is tough, only the strong ones survive. Strong here does not need you to have 6 pax or a big build but just mentally strong to get through it. What happened yesterdays will only motivate you to keep you going.  Save the memories which are worth keeping and put behind the ones which made you sad. I pray that I will be able to go through this. InsyaAllah :)



Yours truly,
Liyana

we'll be a dream ;)

Okay finally found this song! Heard it on the way to work yesterday. I know it's kinda old but I'm lovin it.

So gonna put in on repeatpeatpeat ! (Y)

midnite blues

My mind is everywhere tonight. Can't focus, can't concentrate. Is it the tired body, mind or soul? Had enough sleep I suppose, 8 hours of rest is definitely more than what I need.

At times I feel like quitting. Always having second thoughts, is this what I really want? Is this what makes me happy? Kept telling myself I cannot gonna give up coz of little tiny distractions. But how long could I take this?

Felt so alone, even so many people around. Faking my smile, putting a big laugh but inside....? Am getting better at being pretentious these days. I wish I could delete this off me, so badly.


P/S : Sorry boss, I'm blogging this from office during my shift. I can't barely concentrate. Dang!


Sincerely,
Liyana Kamal